GOING BACK IN TIME

Leaves on the ground and dew on the leaves

We set out together to stroll on the fields

It was the day when my father was with me

I wish those days come back to make me free

Chatting, laughing, we looked at the rabbit in the furrow

Living life with him was fun and there was no sorrow

A quiet man, he was

Never befriended anyone

But for me he was a different person

And everyday he would come up with a good lesson

the one thing, I hated

was his habit of drinking

that made him  a patient

and his heart was sinking

the attacks he got , made me sit and cry

losing my father was the biggest fright

but was scared to go to him and pry

then one day, my life devastated

and I lost my father

not knowing where he went, unaware of his mental state

we searched for him everywhere

but destiny had made the decision

and I had to accept it with complete devotion

slipping into the darkness of life

my father was never seen again

his disappearance becoming a mystery

entertained some others

for some reason, I feel

this incident happened because of me

as I was the culprit and I was the accused

Will god ever forgive me? Is a question I ask myself everyday

But this doesn’t matter

The only prayer that I make

is to beg god to give me back my father,

my guide ,my guard , my life